Such a major decision. Buying your first home. Do you buy the first one you love, or do you keep looking? It is the most intense shopping I have ever done. The thought of having a home in mind blowing, and terrifying. But so exciting. The prospect of the amount of space we would have gave me butterflies.
I find home searching to be really emtionally draining, not all bad ways, but it takes such a big part of your heart to invest your life into a building.
At least I have one thing I am sure of. The person who I am going into this with.
Just when you think you know what is going to happen in life, something actually happens in your life and changes everything.
A few good rules to go by, one, take noone in your life for granted. Ever. Never take for granted that you will see them the very next day. What if it was the last time you say them ever. What would you come to think of the last thing you said to them, are you ok to carry that from then on. Never take those you love for granted. Not ever.
Two, live your best life. You get one, live it the very best you can. Don't hate yourself now, when you are all you have. There is one you, and every single thing about you, is amazing.
Sometimes you just have those nights that remind you more, what you are and who your have. Makes me sad, makes me happy... makes me realize I am not numb inside, that I still have hope to be able to live with it all.
Time, time it goes, it passes. It brings, it takes away. It changes, it stays the same. Like all things, it comes and goes like the tide of an ocean. New things are swept into your life as things are swept out to sea. Just when you think you know all there is to learn, something turns your world upside down. Do not take for granted the things you think you know and confuse them with something you know nothing about.
We take steps forward to get back to the place we wish to be at, all the while missing what you finally have in front of you.
All my troubles seemed so far away,
Now it looks as though they're here to stay,
Oh, I believe in yesterday.
I had a dream of a birthday, and the celebrations continue on. It is my boy's birthday tomorrow.. October is the birthday month. Turning 30 wasn't as hard as I thought it would be. Looking back at the 20's and seeing how far I have come and how happy I am now, I am really ok with where I am in my life. It is the most amazing feeling and I hope that everyone can have that in there life. We all deserve too, we all need to. To know that where we are in life is good, that it is right. Believe me, I know that it does not come easy, I didn't really think I would ever be at that point, but I am there, getting there, mostly there.. it changes day to day. But I know I am closer then I have ever been, and it is the most beautiful feeling.
I started with my Worth blog, and then thought to add another one, it was more of an experiment to try and fix something in my blog and then I thought maybe I would keep this one too...this blog, shine on baby, will be about fashion too, I mean, I just can't get away from how much I love clothes and fashion and shopping and looking... I just get so caught up in fashion. The images, the feeling that is provokes. All the amazing things that designers are doing are so staggering, that I can't even wrap my mind around it sometimes.
The name shine on baby was inspired from the love of my love, Scott. He wrote this sweet inscription in a Louis Vuitton bracelet he gave me as a gift for my birthday. In it he wrote, Keep on shining Baby. And I really loved that, it just summed up everything I had ever wanted someone to say to me.
I hope that this blog becomes something that people really look forward to reading and loving!