I had a dream of a birthday, and the celebrations continue on. It is my boy's birthday tomorrow.. October is the birthday month. Turning 30 wasn't as hard as I thought it would be. Looking back at the 20's and seeing how far I have come and how happy I am now, I am really ok with where I am in my life. It is the most amazing feeling and I hope that everyone can have that in there life. We all deserve too, we all need to. To know that where we are in life is good, that it is right. Believe me, I know that it does not come easy, I didn't really think I would ever be at that point, but I am there, getting there, mostly there.. it changes day to day. But I know I am closer then I have ever been, and it is the most beautiful feeling.